Pandemic

I never thought in my 25 years of life, I would go through something like this. This has affected so many people and small businesses it’s crazy!

At my age i didn’t think I would have to switch from “Momma” to “Mrs. Momma” and homeschool my oldest. Trying to explain to him that there is a “big bad bug” outside and he no longer can’t go see his teacher or all his new friends he made this year. We don’t get those car rides home and talk about how good his day was. What he picked to eat at school. He no longer gets the 8 hour of “big boy” time away from the other two.

We made many plans this year (like everybody else) that sadly had to be cancelled. My oldest out of my 3 was the only one that celebrated his birthday with friends and family. My middle child celebrated his birthday with mom, dad, and brothers. My youngest celebrated his first year of life with just us. Yes he won’t ever remember, but us parents will. It’s one of the most important birthdays!

Many trips cancelled as well. The number 1 trip was going to surprise my oldest with Disneyland and the little ones were staying behind with their grandparents. Something special just for him. I’m thankful I didn’t tell him and I wouldn’t have to let my boy down. I don’t want to make empty promises. Or to let him down. We also take a yearly camping trip that I’m 100% sure that is not happening. The one time a year we go up the mountains and we stay in a cabin with family. The kids can run wild and we would never have worry as it was fenced in. The later in the year trip was also back East where I’m from to visit my Uncle, but we decided upon ourselves to cancel as we don’t need to risk anything or anyones health.

I was hoping 2020 was one of those blessed years. With no issues. 2020 has brought sorrow to my heart. Only because this has affected my children. I’m an adult and I understand. And I’ll get over it. But as adults we try and do remember the good times of our childhood. And our goal is to make many memories for our kids to look back on and love. And this pandemic sure as hell isn’t helping.

I know I’m not the only one who feels about this. I feel like now that I have typed and shared my thought, this will be okay. And look forward to 2021/2022 year. And we will be blessed with many memory making opportunities and joy to my family.

-J